#1: Introduction to finding "A Moment of Strength"

On December 31, 2019 I posted on social media as I sat in my kitchen by myself. I had put my then 3 year old daughter Mia to bed hours earlier, and it was just me and my over-thinking brain bringing in the New Year. I remember feeling like, damn... 2019 might have been the worst year of my life. Every major aspect was drastically and abruptly altered despite my significant efforts to hold on to status quo. But I tried to flip the script and look at it as instead of the "worst" year, let's look at it as the most "challenging" year of my life.

And it was HARD AS HELL... Really the last 3 years. There was a level of anxiety and fear that I had never known. There was so much lost, yet so much gained. Indescribable growth. I unconsciously decided to embrace it all, through floods of tears, unbearable pain paired with incredible sighs of relief. I decided to frame it as that I CHOSE this path. I chose to overcome the challenges. I chose to become STRONGER THAN I EVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE. I chose to do what was best for me and in turn, for my daughter. I chose to give myself a second chance - to find happiness, security and unconditional love.

I didn't do it all by myself. I have a kick-ass squad of family and best friends. They SHOWED UP for me and Mia, and I can never thank them enough for being my stable rocks when I was trying to get myself out of an uncontrollable landslide. I also chose to be unapologetically proud of myself - for getting out, for protecting my daughter. For finding my moment of strength to make the decision to find my way back to ME. It just takes a moment, a glimpse of the strength you have inside you to change your life forever.

I promised myself that New Years night that I would never lose myself again. And here I am again... trying to embrace a change and make some new great things happen.